Life is an intricate dance between duty, love, and self-discovery. The past year has brought me face-to-face with all three, forcing me to navigate a path that was both unfamiliar and unexpectedly fulfilling.
When my mum was diagnosed with cancer, it felt as though the world shifted on its axis. She had always been independent, a tech-savvy trailblazer who managed change with grace. As her health declined, I found myself stepping into roles I had never imagined. Yet, caring for her wasn’t an added burden; it felt like a natural extension of love, a way to give back to the woman who had given me so much.
Through this period, I juggled my role as a caregiver with managing our family and diving into the heartbeat of my work and LILIN. The events in July and August were draining yet reaffirmed my ability to persevere through passion and purpose. Each day was a cycle of doing what was necessary, driven by the simple act of putting one foot in front of the other.
Following my compassionate leave, I jumped back into work, projects, and events at a crazy pace, even managing a year-end family holiday. It was a time to breathe, to recalibrate, and to embrace the bittersweet reality of only having Dad with us. Yet, life often serves its lessons in waves, and just as we wanted to start fresh, more challenging news tested our resolve.
Feeling my mental and emotional reserves depleting, my supportive husband suggested a break—a weekend escape to Kuala Lumpur in January. It was there, away from the routine and surrounded by good food and conversation, that reflection seeped in. I questioned my path, my wants, and acknowledged the gaps in self-care. What was I doing for myself? The answer was less than satisfying, and I knew changes were necessary.
Returning from KL, I made the hardest decision yet: to leave my job. This choice didn’t come lightly. I was surrounded by incredible colleagues and a boss who offered unwavering support during my mum’s illness. But even with their kindness, I realized that I needed space, solace, and time to explore life beyond the familiar confines of my professional "shell."
Since stepping away in April, life has been about rediscovery and renewal. I've reconnected with the culinary joys of preparing meals for my family, rekindled friendships that weathered my busyness, and indulged in learning new skills that stir my curiosity. Each day is an affirmation of the choice to put myself first, fuelling a peaceful mind and a joyous heart.
Parallel to this personal rebirth, LILIN beckons for transformation. Reflecting on its future during this period of change, I've envisioned a path that aligns more closely with my evolving perspective—a journey that promises growth, authenticity, and new light.
This transition, both personal and professional, is a testament to life's unpredictability and resilience. It is a narrative woven with love, loss, letting go, and finding one's footing anew. As I embrace this new chapter with open arms, I invite you to journey with me, illuminating the path forward with shared stories, compassion, and creativity.
Love and Light,
Nur
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